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Slightly Less Misanthropic Today

On my bus ride home from work last night, I witnessed an event that may seem ordinary but effected my outlook on mankind greatly.

The bus was making its way through the night and all was usual; the work-weary, the transients. At one stop a man boards with giant bags from Ross and turns around and notices his significant other was struggling at the door.  She was encumbered by something that I could not see from where I was sitting. The man walks over to his lady and grabs the giant Ross bags she was holding and set them down. Then he maneuvers a very drunk man that was leaning on his lady’s back. It was very clear that the inebriated man was not with them. Ross Man and Lady Ross gingerly plop Drooling, Drunk Man onto a seat and voice concern over his state. This continues for about a mile until Ross Man makes the executive decision to take Drunk Man’s phone and call someone to help.

“Hi. I’ve got your friend here and he’s drunk. I’ll be getting off on Anaheim and Walnut. We’ll be waiting with him until you arrive.”

So they collect the mess, a mess that is not their responsibility, and sat with him in the cold night air until his friend came to get him.

The real heart of this story is that Mr. and Mrs Ross did not look like your typical Good Samaritans; they were sporting a too-small pink velour track suit and low-slung baggy jeans. It made me feel low that I would have misjudged them had I not witnessed this event. It also made me feel really good to see that there are people out there that are willing to help a stranger in need.

Has this changed me? Maybe just a little bit for the better.

oh, the heartbreak of missed opportunities…

oh, the heartbreak of missed opportunities…

The day after my birthday I prepared myself to see you once again. I held it together pretty well considering… and it was rather comical that i had arrived with A. It was definitely comical when B entered the scene. It would have been an absolute farce if C had not flaked. And all of that gave me the strength to laugh and smile and smoke a cigarette with you and drink a shot of beam with you.  As the drink flowed it became clear that the comedy glue was not going to hold much longer. I stood up, wobbly at the knees, and declared “Oh, I am much too tired to continue on, Good night, you rascal! And to You, too! Hey man, I love you. Good night!”  And then it was time to say good night to you.  Your arms wrapped around my back and I could feel my resolve dissolve. You whispered, “You are brilliant. You are one of my favorite people.” And I came undone. The tears filled my eyes like a tapped artesian spring, the reflexive blink brought them down my face and dampened your red shirt (the one that I like paired with a green tee) “Goddamn you for making me cry in front of everyone.”  Eventually I pulled away. A kind friend led me onto the cold and anonymous privacy of the street where I was able to weep audibly without shame That kind friend patted me on my back and led me home away from Homestead.  How apt that things end Right where they began.

The day after my birthday I prepared myself to see you once again. I held it together pretty well considering… and it was rather comical that i had arrived with A. It was definitely comical when B entered the scene. It would have been an absolute farce if C had not flaked. And all of that gave me the strength to laugh and smile and smoke a cigarette with you and drink a shot of beam with you. As the drink flowed it became clear that the comedy glue was not going to hold much longer. I stood up, wobbly at the knees, and declared “Oh, I am much too tired to continue on, Good night, you rascal! And to You, too! Hey man, I love you. Good night!” And then it was time to say good night to you. Your arms wrapped around my back and I could feel my resolve dissolve. You whispered, “You are brilliant. You are one of my favorite people.” And I came undone. The tears filled my eyes like a tapped artesian spring, the reflexive blink brought them down my face and dampened your red shirt (the one that I like paired with a green tee) “Goddamn you for making me cry in front of everyone.” Eventually I pulled away. A kind friend led me onto the cold and anonymous privacy of the street where I was able to weep audibly without shame That kind friend patted me on my back and led me home away from Homestead. How apt that things end Right where they began.

The aftermath of a rowdy halloween party

The aftermath of a rowdy halloween party

a strange turn of eventsi have rediscovered an old pair of glovesthey smelled like cigarettes and light beera pair of conservative, white glovesa strange turn of eventsa strange pair of gloveswarm, strong and familiar
oh well.back into the box they go.

a strange turn of events
i have rediscovered an old pair of gloves
they smelled like cigarettes and light beer
a pair of conservative, white gloves
a strange turn of events
a strange pair of gloves
warm, strong and familiar

oh well.
back into the box they go.

I walk into a sushi restaurant where the personnel all scream at me “IRASSHAIMASSEN!” before I even have a chance to set my foot in. I feel happy and, dare I say, even welcome. I sit down and leaf through their menu and then they start speaking Cambodian to each other.
I FEEL DUPED! This is insulting to me! Are they trying to trick me into believing they’re authentic or are they just trying to keep shit Disneyland? Either way, I feel embarrassed. And I don’t want to feel like I’m dining at Disneyland unless there’s a fucking clam chowder in a bread bowl in front of me and a spray of fireworks above me.
Hindsight: The sushi was decent. The rice was cooked a bit on the mushier side but it tasted pretty good overall.
Next time.. could you just please greet me in English or your native language? PLEASE?????

I walk into a sushi restaurant where the personnel all scream at me “IRASSHAIMASSEN!” before I even have a chance to set my foot in. I feel happy and, dare I say, even welcome. I sit down and leaf through their menu and then they start speaking Cambodian to each other.

I FEEL DUPED! This is insulting to me! Are they trying to trick me into believing they’re authentic or are they just trying to keep shit Disneyland? Either way, I feel embarrassed. And I don’t want to feel like I’m dining at Disneyland unless there’s a fucking clam chowder in a bread bowl in front of me and a spray of fireworks above me.

Hindsight: The sushi was decent. The rice was cooked a bit on the mushier side but it tasted pretty good overall.

Next time.. could you just please greet me in English or your native language? PLEASE?????

FUCK YOU, DA MAN!

ARGH!

I keep racking up parking tickets because there are no clear signs posted about the time meters are in effect.

This is obviously a ploy by the city of Long Beach (and the rest of the metered parking world) to keep me a miserable pauper shopping at Goodwill.

Not that it is bad to shop at Goodwill. I did find a Barneys co-op dress there for 5 dollars today. At least I’ll be a stylish pauper.

Charlie Heart

Fuck you for pervading my dreams.

Natalie on the Subject of Love

Journal Entry #36

I think some things have changed.
I no longer take pleasure in pleasure
Especially if it is with someone
Who is not as horrible as you.

I’ve been trounced upon,
My heart a pitiful smashed thing
At the bottom of my stomach.
There it is waiting to be digested
And to finally exit out of my colon.

And then my pitiful, wasted heart
Will swirl pathetically in the toilet bowl.
I’ll shed a tear for it
And flush.

this bowl overfloweth

Slightly Less Misanthropic Today
goodbyes are like assholes
FUCK YOU, DA MAN!
Charlie Heart
Natalie on the Subject of Love

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